Unbearable Pain: A Personal Struggle Against the Enigmatic Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It was a gloomy weekday morning in September 2016. I was working as a educator, trying to settle a new group of students, when a sharp pain sprang behind my right eye. Then came rapid shocks, like lightning bolts. As the school day came and went, the pain subsided and then returned with increased force. Multiple times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with activities and hurried to the school bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I tried aspirin, but the pain remained unbearable.

The attacks appeared repeatedly that fall, and once more in the spring, soon forming an annual pattern. September and October were the most severe, then the late winter. I could anticipate the pattern: a warning sensation in the morning, early twinges on the commute, full-on pain in class by 9.30am. In late 2019, a doctor eventually referred me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches often begin with severe pain around one eye that persists up to three hours.

About one in 1,000 individuals are affected by the condition, and males are more often diagnosed. Cluster headaches usually begin with sudden, severe agony focused on one eye that reaches its peak within minutes and lasts for as long as three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, every day or several times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or face perspiration. There exists an episodic type, which occurs in periodic cycles; others have chronic cluster headaches, characterized by the lack of long symptom-free periods.

What connects patients is the intensity. One study rated the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, higher than bone fractures or pancreatitis. Another found a significant percentage of cluster patients experienced suicidal thoughts amid bouts; the number fell to four percent when they were pain-free.

One patient, in her seventies, a chronic patient from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her attacks started when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the floor and hit my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through childhood. Drinking in her teens, like many triggers, made things more intense. After drinking sherry at her graduation party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the bus home.

Her relatives often interpreted her episodes as drunken episodes. Understanding finally came from her father and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after moving, but often concealed her condition. She was fired from one job, partly due to time off during episodes. Her definitive identification came in the early 2000s at a national neurology center.

Nevertheless, the failure to plan life around unpredictable pain took its effect. She particularly disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her family during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the simple liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been described across the ages. “The earliest description of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write experts in a book on the subject. They linked the disease to an evil entity who attacked his sufferers' heads.

Ancient medical texts propose bizarre treatments for what modern experts would classify as a migraine. In the medieval times, severe headache was recognised as a separate condition, with treatments ranging from bloodletting to other, more folk remedies.

It was a European physician who provided the first comprehensive account of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache occurring and vanishing daily at specific hours”.

The disorder were only officially recognised by international headache committees in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a key artery that delivers blood to the brain. Leading specialists in treating the condition explain this.

In 1998, scientists released the findings of a study for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and monitored the attacks in a brain scanner. The results, published in a prominent journal, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they felt better.

In spite of such advances, identification remains delayed. One man's attacks began in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he had multiple surgeries before eventually being diagnosed in 2014, after a doctor looked up his symptoms.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosis and managing happen because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and low, but not in severe pain,” one says. He works by eliminating other common head pain conditions, such as migraine, before diagnosing the disorder. A detailed history is essential: on which part of the head do symptoms appear? For how much time? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Specific features such as redness, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be sent to specialist centers. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable treatments.

A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has experienced cluster headaches for the majority of her adult life, although she hasn't had an episode since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars extracted because dentists misinterpreted her symptoms. She believes the dental profession still need much more education. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who replied. The author recalls calling a helpline during an bout in early 2021; a calm advisor guided me through oxygen treatment and drugs until the episode eased.

National guidance on treatment advise that patients are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a specific medication delivered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive options include verapamil, which reportedly soothes the bouts of some people.

But leading neurologists argue the official guidelines need updating to reflect a clearer clinical pathway and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, timing is critical: “The duration of the bout determines the treatment.” Brief cycles with occasional episodes are handled with acute treatment only. More prolonged or more intense bouts require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an procedure into the side of the skull where the pain is that reduces nerve signals.

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Christopher Chen
Christopher Chen

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